MY HEART, YOUR FOOT

2006-11-29T18:36:00.001-05:00

Trying to find my...I'm trying to figure how push towards my calling... I'm sticking to Graphic design.i believe i'm called to do that because i keep coming back to it. I love kids, My passion is working with children. however i'm feeling that the day care i work for isn't my calling for that area. I love the kids i work for to bits, but i feel as if my passion is for the kids at Sonshine club, I'm torn when i cant make it or, i can only stay for 20 mins, I want to help Jessica get stuff ready for each club! I have a friend who is going to talk to a guy about maybe having me intern with him, or something like that,then if that falls into place, I could quit my job, do that, get a part time-job, help Jessica when possible, and go to club...Go to school again " of course" problem:: won't be making as much money.. and esp if i'm going to be getting married sometime hopefully with in the next couple years, i need to be saving up. its not cheep. I was looking at houses/apartments because pastor jim suggested we do that, to get an idea, etc. and a 1 bedroom apartment is 415, plus 20 dollars a month for each cat and i have 2, luke wants to take both of them with us.. haha. it would be a lot cheeper to buy a house, but still expensive...Well give me your comments on all this stuff....tata

great news

2006-07-09T15:10:00.000-04:00

I got a job!

I start working at Northside Christian Church, tomorrow. i am teacher assistent!

So Courtney what's new in your life?

2006-06-25T11:28:00.000-04:00

Well, since you asked...

I Still Don't have a job. I think Ive realized that nobody in springfield wants me... Ususally people dont want a job, I mean I dont "want" one, I need one, I have bills that I dont have money to pay them, I dont even have money for gas. I have tryed pretty much every where I can think of.

I just got back from sonshine camp last week, I was exsauted (sp) so I didnt update.

I am trying to decide what I should do about school, should I go back next year or should I Just quit..
So on a good note, Luke and I started meeting with pastor Jim last wed. so that is exiting... if you dont know what I am talking about think about it

More Bad News.

2006-05-26T21:16:00.000-04:00

Yesterday, I found out that my Grandpa had died. My parents are in michigan helping my grandma plan the funeral. Luke and I will be going up there sometime early tuesday morning. i figured it would be better to go in the morning. The Funeral Is Tuesday after noon at 1 o' clock. We'll stay the night at my aunts and the head back wednesday sometime.
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I've had so much bad news lately, Cant I get any good? Can't anything good happen to me?
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I'll miss These guys-Horse mann, snowhill, and wader park

so, yeah

2006-05-24T23:41:00.000-04:00

So I went to work today just to find out that i am being "Laid off" which basicly means I got fired. not becuase i did something wrong, but because the sales were horriable and they didnt need me anymore. So now i am with out a job. Not the best time. but i guess not the worse. It is going to be hard to find a job in the summer, its been hard to find a job in springfield. so yeah. I have bills to pay. i have the money. but now i have to watch what i spend. so yeah,.. new chapter in my life

411

2006-05-19T00:50:00.000-04:00

If you dont already know or i havent told you yet.
Over the weekend my car got broken into.
they took my sony mp3 cd player, and most of my cd's that were in my car.
Good thing most of the cd's that were stolen were burned. but they took my mxpx cd's, skillet, and lincoln brewster cd, I dont know what other real cds they took, (stil tring to figure out what i had in there. i dont care about the burned as much.
They only left like 5 cds. Plumb, Aaron shurts ( real cds), elvate '06, sum 41, and kelly clarkson(burned). i was guessing they left the ones that looked christian or that they didnt like.. so yeah looking for a cd player now.. as of now my ipod is my stero system, the system that only i can hear! haha

what job i want.

2006-05-14T18:00:00.000-04:00

i know there are a few people who have told me that this is a stupid idea of what kind of a job I want...

Ok, I know this job doesnt pay good at all, but I want to be a Wife and a Mother. I know it doesnt seem like a job, but it really is. It is alot of work to raise and take care of kids..

Ive felt like this since i was real young..

Now this doesnt mean i wont have little jobs, i mean that i want the job of being a wife and a mother to be the main gig.

there i have it, be mad if ya want.

FREE DAVID CROWDER CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-12T23:03:00.000-04:00

That is right, David Crowder will be at Island Metro Park in Dayton ohio June 17th and the best part of the whole concert is that it is FREE!!!!! so this is the best time to go, even if david crowder plays for a few mins it stillwont be a waste! However, DCB is the last band and they start at 7:30 which means they will play at least til 8 and even that is good so who is going with me?

2006-04-17T23:36:00.000-04:00

Blush (Only You) Plumb lyrics

Artist: Plumb
Album: Chaotic Resolve
Year: 2005
Title: Blush (Only You)

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When you look at me i start to blush
and all that i can say is you and us
oh baby im so afraid to be in love
with you,
with you...

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you
just you

when stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
ill light the night with fire
and run away

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you

i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)
i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)

i wanna be in love with you...

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you

just you
i wanna be
just you yeah

I have Odontophobia

2006-04-12T02:49:00.000-04:00

i always mess good things up......:-/

Tulsa

2006-04-05T19:37:00.000-04:00

Well we are all here in tulsa Safely. Nice rooms ugly beds.. Elvete starts tomorrow.. The weather is awesome here... 80's that is all i can say..

Until next time.

Court

15 hours until I leave.....

2006-04-04T09:48:00.000-04:00

I leave in 15 hours for Tulsa Ok.

I have a lot to do still, I still need to pack, clean, get snacks, figure out what i am taking and what i am leaving. Not sure about my laptop. I may take it so i can put pictures on it. I probably will not up date while i am gone..

tata

360

2006-03-25T09:08:00.000-05:00

For all of you guys who don't know yet, Luke and I got a Xbox 360 wednesday. We only got 1 game for it so far ( call f duty 2), It's a fun game, i shot luke like 4 times and he got me like 10. We hoping to get Burn out revenge. We played the demo and it was sweet....

2 daystil school starts again :-(
1 week til Tulsa
2 weeks til no parents for a week :-)
2 weeks, and 1 day til Going to Ruth & David's

Days to come..

2006-03-20T08:22:00.000-05:00

So springbreak hasnt been fun fillling yet, All i have done so far is work, sleep, and thats bout it..
Today i work from 1-6. and then Luke and I are going over to rob and becca's to eat dinner and hang out. shall be fun...

Tulsa is less then 2 weeks away... Im excited... however i feel bad for mising a couple classes.
then going to ruth's in about 2 weeks.. yay for one day family members...

I have sonshine club 3 times this week.. yay i get to go back to horse mann...

I offically hate buchanan. if you ever have to take an english class never take it from her,.

Year of Travel?

2006-03-12T01:03:00.000-05:00

This year's theme looks to be the road trip theme. Every one wants to go one it seems....
Rach is in New york with Bobby & Nathan. And her being there makes me want to on vaction/ roadtrip. Going to new york would be fun. but i want to go out of the counrty... I want to go to Germany... yes I said it Germany, that is where my family came from and i think it would be awesome to go. but to go for a week luke and i would have to come up with a little over 2,000.
not to bad i guess. but stilll alot of money...

However to start off the year of travel, I am going to Tulsa Ok. the 4th of april, Im going with some friends to a leadership confrence. the youth group is called 180 im really excited. Then the friday after we get back (good friday), Luke and I are planning on going to Indi to see and stay with Ruth for Easter weekend, hang out and stuff together, Im looking forward to that also. I would like to go up to Michigan sometime and vist some old friends, my friend Ashley imperticlar. and show Luke off to a few old buddies..

I want to go to newark ohio this summer to vist my little brother. i almost promised i would.
I dont want to be home all the time this year.. I want to explore.....

** TRAVEL UPDATE IM GOING TO SONSHINE CAMP.. AND IF YOU WANT TO GO CALL JESSICA VALLE. IT IS SERIOUSLY ALOT OF FUN.. JUNE 12-16TH

Mac's Suck.

2006-03-05T15:23:00.000-05:00

I would have to this movie is very funny..

2006-03-03T13:29:00.000-05:00

Love so incredible to know
It's never gonna go
Never gonna go

Love too impossible and true
For anyone but You
For anyone but You

I think I'm on the brink of something large
Maybe like the breaking of a dawn
Or maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship
Letting go gives a better grip

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be
I am Yours

Love so indelible to know
You're never gonna go
You're never gonna go

Love too unthinkable and true
For anyone but You
For anyone but You

Maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship
Letting go gives a better grip

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be

I am Yours forever...

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be
I am Yours

Forever and ever and ever and ever
And ever and ever and ever and ever... (repeat)

(DCB, 2005)

Sickness

2006-02-28T10:21:00.000-05:00

Sunday night after youth group I didnt feel so great and from about 10 o clock on i was throwing up, every thing that was in my stomach was gone I could not hold anything down. So for the whole night I was sick, and couldnt sleep, becuase every 2 hours i was throwing up. So monday I basicly slept all day. Didn't go to class, didn't go to work, didn't go hang out with becca, just stayed home and slept off and on,

Luke Came over around 12 and brought me flowers and sat with me while i was recrouperating (sp). That was the sweetest thing ever, and I just wanted to tell everyon how much of a sweet boyfriend i have.

also just to let you know that the 24 hour flu sucks!

Art show

2006-02-25T07:30:00.000-05:00

Art show
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

So Thursday my Black history month peice that I did in class made it to the art show at clark state. Its the one in the middle, "Rosa Parks". Even though it is not the best It was an honor to see a picture I drew on display where 200 people could see it. So Iam happy.

Other news...
I am sad to say that as of now I have dropped Graphic Design. For personal reasons and convictions. I know alot of you are probably pretty disapointed in me, but I had to do it. Better news since I dropped my major, I picked up Photogaphy. and Im hoping I find a place that has degrees in that field, insted of a certifcate...

I bought the car Tuesday after noon, And I can say I love it alot.. I thank God for that car. Becuase the other car I was driving, was horriable, the transmission started going out on me.

That is all the updates I have for the moment.

My New Car

2006-02-19T11:41:00.000-05:00

My New Car
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

So yesterday I bought a new car... I got it for 2,800. It comes with a brand new sony cd player, and the guy I bought it from is putting a sunroof in tomorrow. I only had to pay 200 for it. so my final total I had to pay is 3,200. So thats not bad at all. I get to pick it up tuesday sometime Yay.

2006-02-15T21:15:00.000-05:00

Everyone in the blogging world, I want you all to know that I really Love Luke.

The Other Part of My Story...

2006-02-10T17:50:00.000-05:00

I found out, oh about a month ago that a friend of mine for 11+ years was going to have a baby.. Now she didn't tell me I had to find out through her xanga. Now I was kinda upset she didnt tell me.. and that i had to find out online. However About a month after i found out she was going to have a baby.. I find out that she is now going to marry the father. And she i guess is getting married sometime at the end of this month..

Now this may sound like i am mad cause she is getting married before i do. But that is not how it is. See I am not even invited to this wedding... She was my best friend for over 11 years..

So right now I am dealing with a lot of hurt from this..... Who would of known that your best friend wont even invite you to her wedding.. Yes we havent been as close for a couple years.. but still, you would this she would invite yout to her wedding... Sad,I know i'll invite her to mine.

My weekend...

2006-02-08T09:53:00.000-05:00

Lets start with Saturday..
I went to media teams and did the songs and pastor 's notes. Then I went to Larry and Jennifer's house to see if Luke was ready to go to break down. but before breakdown we went to walmart to get Derek and Liv's Gift and then found out that breakdown was canceled after we were already in the parking lot, So we decided to hang out at Rob and Becca's until Derek's party. The Guys watched Ray and Becca and I played the sims..

Sunday....
After church Luke and I decided we were going to go look at that car I wanted to buy. We left around 1:30 or 2 pm. Headed our on route 4 the road's werent very bad, but there was some spot's that were covered with snow. but wasnt to bad. How ever there was this one patch of snow/ice about 10 miles from micaicsburg (sp) and that spot we started fish tailing and Luke Lost control and the fishtailing turned into donuts and then finally threw us backwards in a ditch. (The car was turned backwards facing springfield, not flipped) Luke tried to get us out but ended up getting us more stuck so we were in a cornfield or about an hour or more waiting for my brother in law to come and try to pull us out. the highway portal came, the firefighters, and the sherff. all came and asked if we were ok, and if we had heat and if we had anyone coming for us.. We said yes. They told us that their had been alot of accenients that day and if we wanted them to pull us out then we would prolly have to wait along time.. So it was good thing bub was on his way..

We were both ok, Im sore becuase i was in the middle seat and the with the car spinning what seened like forever it moves you around...

While we were waiting we thanked God for keeping us safe, and for not letting the Car flip. (which while it was happening I thought it was going to happen.)

My bro in law came and luke and I thought he had a hard time pulling us out. but we finally got out, He said we were in there deep.

After that we decided to go home so we didnt see the car.. later found out that car wasnt very good...

On the way home we saw a truck on its side with the top cut off.. It was horriable.. and we Thanked God that wasn't us.

The acceniant couldnt have happened at a better time though.. There was no cars around. until after we were out of the road.. when we were in the field there was a bunch cars driving by..

So yeah, we are both fine, little sore, The only damage to Luke's dad's car was that the peice that holds the lisence plate broke off.. but you can glue that...

More to come.....

Bands

2006-02-02T23:33:00.000-05:00

Bands I want to see

Lifehouse****
Spoken***
Staple**
Mxpx****
Skillet***
David Crowder**

Really bad....

Little Nano Update

2006-02-02T22:39:00.000-05:00

Little Nano is feeling much better. She had a 24hr bug, due to me not ejecting her right. But needless she is in great condition. Must go. I have work all day tomorrow and hopfully going to look at a car*

*The guy looking for a car for me, said he may have found one. 1997, blue honda civic. and he will tell me tomorrow if he got it. and if he does I will go to look at it tomorow.. So pray about that becuase i really need a car that will be reliable. :-D thanks
And also pray for me cuz I'm dealing with self issues..

Little Nano

2006-02-02T09:37:00.000-05:00

My little Nano is sick right now.. I don't know what is wrong with her. Yesterday she wouldn't play any music, she kept going through the songs and not stopping. I told her I would have to reset her if she kept it up. she did, and I resetted her.. I started putting music back on her, so we could have fun. but she would not hold the song down. So shes sick.
I hope she feels better soon.. I miss listening to her.

Like the new blog? How do i get my pictures to show up any-body know?

2006-01-31T10:11:00.000-05:00

Ive decidedi really want an ipod mini... yes i love my Nano, but its just too small. A mini is just right for me. If any one knows where i can get one for a good price then tell me.. Right now Im in the clarkstate libaray awaiting for my class to start. Yes m very boring english class. I had a 3 page paper due this morning, I had 3 people proof read it so hopfully i get a good grade on it.

I had my dad drop me off which means i am stuck here til 5 tonight woo hoo.. um not really...
I am hoping someone can bring me lunch.. becuse i will be starbing to death.. lol.. I have an idea what im going to do for my typeography class. as soon as i make a good comp i will put it on here... I still need to make picogram temps for my illstraor class...

I got the biggest part done.. expect for the rescearch for art.. i'll do that tonight..

I should go , class will start in a few mins.

Art

2006-01-30T01:38:00.000-05:00

Jan 06 033
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

This my art project that is due in the morning, I thought I would take a picture and show you all what my creation is. Right now I am in the works of writeing what it means and what category of abstract art it falls in. And since during the class time when I did this, I wasnt really feeling much, I just did it so Toles wouldnt get on me about not doing it. So im pulling everything out of my butt for the writing of this piece..

Still looking for a car, hopfully will have one to look at by next week.
I start discipleship with Liz tomorrow, Woot

I have an english paper due tuesday morning that is supose to be at least 3 pages long, I have about 1 page, and then i need someone to proof read it and correct it, or show me what to correct and how ( im horriable at papers)

Well Iam going to go to sleep, I am hoping to get up early and go to the Y to work out before school.. (HAHA)

Night all

Foreign Language

2006-01-26T22:08:00.000-05:00

So entschied ich, unterschiedlich zu sein und diesen Pfosten auf Deutsch zu schreiben. Ive entschied, daß ich aufwachsen muß. Jetzt sage ich Im nicht inmature, Becuase, das ich recht fällig bin. Ich muß gerade erlernen, wie man mein Geld mehr, priortize mein Leben handhat, das Gott zuerst schulen setzt dann, dann Luke, usw. etc.. Es kann Zeit. aber im nehmen tuend, um mein härtestes zu versuchen, Sachen zu erhalten erfolgt, wenn sie sein sollten und jetzt, als ich sie tun möchte. So im nach einem Auto suchend, bin ich gekommen zu glauben, daß meiner auf seinem letzten strech ist. schickt betender Gott so Im mich das rechte Auto mit niedrigen Meilen, gutem condiction und dem doesnt, das zu alful viel gekostet wird. Brunnen I sollte gehend erhalten und etwas Hauptarbeit, passende bald eine Schuld von drei kunstprojekten zu beginnen am Montag, aller, den ich für diesen tun muß, ist schreiben über es. das onter eine ich benötige gerade Daumennägel... Und ich habe einen passenden Papierdienstag, das schlechte Englisch class..Talk zu Ihnen Kerle later.Have ein gute Nachttschuess

2006-01-20T23:46:00.000-05:00

I long for importance.
My goal is to get rid of all this hurt that i have
My goal is over come my biggest disapointment
I long for seriousness..

I have come to believe that some one broke into my car wednesday night at church, becuase I came out side, and my passenger door was wide open. Somehow my ipod was underneith the car frozen to the ground. now the case that was close by, was gone... Im happy my ipod was still in tack, even though it was frozen my ipod still works.
thats my post

ps. my art project may be in the art show soon.

Until You Speak

2006-01-16T22:52:00.000-05:00

Words and Music by T.J. Hampton and Darren Cooper

Here I stand before my King
My heart is racing
I take the sandals off my feet
Fall to my knees

I'm not worthy of your face
But You show it to me
I'm not worthy of this place
But You call me to it

Speak your word to me
Holy Spirit
Tell me all of your secrets
(and) I'll stay here with you
And I won't move
Until you speak

Listen To This Song

2006-01-02T23:09:00.000-05:00

Psalm 103

A David psalm

¹O my soul, bless GOD. From head to toe, I'll bless his holy name!

²O my soul, bless GOD,

don't forget a single blessing!

³He forgives your sins--every one.

He heals your diseases--every one.

⁴He redeems you from hell--saves your life!

He crowns you with love and mercy--a paradise crown.

⁵He wraps you in goodness--beauty eternal.

He renews your youth--you're always young in his presence.

⁶GOD makes everything come out right;

he puts victims back on their feet.

⁷He showed Moses how he went about his work,

opened up his plans to all Israel.

⁸GOD is sheer mercy and grace;

not easily angered, he's rich in love.

⁹He doesn't endlessly nag and scold,

nor hold grudges forever.

¹⁰He doesn't treat us as our sins deserve,

nor pay us back in full for our wrongs.

¹¹As high as heaven is over the earth,

so strong is his love to those who fear him.

¹²And as far as sunrise is from sunset,

he has separated us from our sins.

¹³As parents feel for their children,

GOD feels for those who fear him.

¹⁴He knows us inside and out,

keeps in mind that we're made of mud.

¹⁵Men and women don't live very long;

like wildflowers they spring up and blossom,

¹⁶But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly,

leaving nothing to show they were here.

¹⁷GOD's love, though, is ever and always,

eternally present to all who fear him,

Making everything right for them and their children

¹⁸as they follow his Covenant ways

and remember to do whatever he said.

¹⁹GOD has set his throne in heaven;

he rules over us all. He's the King!

²⁰So bless GOD, you angels,

ready and able to fly at his bidding,

quick to hear and do what he says.

²¹Bless GOD, all you armies of angels,

alert to respond to whatever he wills.

²²Bless GOD, all creatures, wherever you are--

everything and everyone made by GOD.

And you,

O my soul, bless GOD!

2005-12-29T23:06:00.000-05:00

You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be

Tears falling down again
Tears falling down

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made

Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you

You're not the only one
You're not the only one


This song was writtin for me.
Drowning in imperfection

Work can be good..

2005-12-28T17:21:00.000-05:00

Today has been a pretty good day,
Rachel and I went out shopping to go get sruff for school. woo (not)
Went to walmart, logos, and best buy where i got a good ole laptop bag.
Then after that i took Rachel home and headed to work. where I came into a great surpise. I saw Josh! Iwas over joyed. gave him a great big hug and began to talk to him..

I do believe that I am the first one to see him except staven and dennis.

woo

Merry Christmas

2005-12-25T08:56:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

Dont for get to thank God for sending his Son on this day!

My Ipod nano came yeaterday morning. Its alot smaller then i thought it would be. But I love it.

Later were going to my sisters, and Luke is coming too, so i am actually looking forward to it. And then Ruth and David are coming tomorrow. And I have been invited to Christmas Dinner over at the Barretts sometime Monday, Yay.

No snow on Christmas :-/

2005-12-23T13:47:00.000-05:00

Christmas is just 2 days away and i can honestly say that i am excited. Luke is goingt o spend christmas with my family and then with his family. Ruth and David will be here monday and tuesday i believe so it will be nice to see them again

I saw Diana today, we went and bugged luke at work. it was fun

A couple days ago a gay guy complamented me on my gutemalla pruse. i thought it was funny.

A guy at the drive-thru store next to code you Wooed at me and called me eithwe sweetie or honey i cant remember...

Tonights the staff party. i need a gift,

The Christmas Season

2005-12-20T20:48:00.000-05:00

The Christmas season is here and I am actually not tring to finish all my christmas shopping becuase I am done, how great is that? I think its great. Christmas is about 5 days and I am actually excited about it. I get to spend Christmas with Luke and my family ( he is coming with us to my sisters.) so this should be fun. I hope my sister acts nice.. This will be his first time meeting her... (ugh) or (yay)?

I decided that even though i asked for drum stuff for christmas, I still dont like the drums.. and cant get back into playing them.. I mean I play them when i have time and enjoy it to. but if someone is in my room andwants me to play in front of them or what not. I cant to it anymore.. That confidance i had is gone. Hopfully it comes back one day.

When i hear anyone play the drums its like someone is punching my heart. I know that sounds emo but i dont care right now.

2005-12-09T00:20:00.000-05:00

1 Corinthians 13

The Way of Love

¹If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing.³If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

⁴Love never gives up.

Love cares more for others than for self.

Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.

Love doesn't strut,

Doesn't have a swelled head,

⁵Doesn't force itself on others,

Isn't always "me first,"

Doesn't fly off the handle,

Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,

⁶Doesn't revel when others grovel,

Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,

⁷Puts up with anything,

Trusts God always,

Always looks for the best,

Never looks back,

But keeps going to the end

⁸Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. ⁹We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. ¹⁰But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.
¹¹When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.
¹²We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
¹³But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.

That would have to be my Favorite chapter in the whole Bible, Not only does it talk about the way God loves us, But it kind of talks about how we should love others. I think that if you want a good realtionship you have to go by these rules

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1.Love never gives up.

2. Love cares more for others than for self.

3. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.

4. Love doesn't strut,

5. Doesn't have a swelled head,

6. Doesn't force itself on others,

7. Isn't always "me first,"

8. Doesn't fly off the handle,

9. Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,

10. Doesn't revel when others grovel,

11. Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,

12. Puts up with anything,

13. Trusts God always,

14. Always looks for the best,

15.Never looks back,

16. keeps going to the end

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I love luke alot and I wanted to share with the blogging world.

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1 whole year

2005-12-08T10:19:00.000-05:00

Today is Luke and I's 1 year annversary.... Yay...

2005-11-29T19:41:00.000-05:00

" Smell her hair, pick her up and pretend you are going to throw her in the pool...she'll scream and fight, but secretly she'll love it. Hold her hand while you talk. Hold her hand while you drive. Just hold her hand. Tell her she looks pretty. Look into her eyes when you talk to her. Protect her. Tell her stupid jokes. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Slow dance with her. When she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Get her mad, then kiss her. Tease her. Let her tease you back. Stay up with her when she's sick. Kiss her forehead. Let her wear your clothes. Go slow. Don't push anything. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her, tell her."

nerd

2005-11-29T09:32:00.000-05:00

Indy.....

2005-11-23T23:35:00.000-05:00

Today was my trip to Indana with the Barretts,
The trip here went pretty well if i do say so, I slept for some of the way.
Got here, and went to David's parents house, They seem very nice, we ate chineese, and played games like apples to apples and bladudash. then I played with their cat which i am told is very shy and lets no one touch her. but she loved me it seemed..

And now I am back at Ruth and Davids house getting ready to sleep on their nice couch....

Things I am thankful for.

To be able to spend Thanksgiving with the Love of my life

Rachel : for teaching me bunch of new things, good things, life skills.

Luke: for always being there for me when i get "quiet"

my parents : for bringing me up right.

and yep thats all i can think of for now..

recap

2005-11-22T23:56:00.000-05:00

Retreat was awesome, Pretty much the best retreat I have ever been to.
saturday night was the best, and I loved the way God moved that night
I'll give more details later cuz im still tired.

Monday I had my drawing 1 portfolio review with the teacher. I was nervous about that, however He told me that my final grade for the class was a freakin D! In other words I only passed by about 10 points, the teacher said i should take drawing 2 even tho I got a D
But I may be re considering............................

Today Rachel and I hung out before she leaves for Russia monday,

Tomorrow I am leaving to Indi, to go spend Thanksgiving with the Barretts at Ruth's house,
Im a little nervous.. but it sould go fine,

Shopping and Birthday

2005-11-12T08:50:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was Rachel's 18th Birthday, and i wanted to make it a good day for here.

She didnt know i was coming to dinner, and that my plan was to take her shopping afterward. So after we had her favorite mexican dish we waiting for her friend Emily. And went to get my stuff so I could spend the night. Emily got there around 8 ish, so we got ready and left for the mall.. The first place we went was Victoria's sercert, because that is like Rachel's Favorite store ever.. After ward we saw that every store was closing/.. Why does the mall close so early? So right before Old Navy closed there doors we ran in side.. Straight to the sale rank. schearched for clothes.. found some, and then lady said that they were closing so we had to leave. So we bought what we grabed. I got 2 shirts. So finally every thing was closed in the upper vally mall and we headed out the door where the security gaurd told us to go. Rachel & Emily ran in to the locked door, it was funny...

Then we went on with our adventure, headed over to target because they have good prices and I had a gift card. I got a sweater and a coke cola shirt. <3.
Then after target we headed over to Blockbuster where I thought I could return the movies I got last week, but soon to find out I have to take them to main street where I got the movies.
As the three of us were looking through the moviesm tring to find a movie to rent with my blockbuster card. But as I was walking around I found these movies....
Now if you ask me They both look a light. I didn't know Leo had to different sides..

Now, it might just be me, but I would think There is a Graphic Designer with no tatse, just because they are coping off each other. I think it is very stupid that people make dvd covers look basicly the same. Now if i wasnt taking Graphic design or wasnt very observent I would of never noticed this.

After blockbuster we went to krogers, got coke and cookies..

Went back to Rach's house I fell asleep..
Now I'm waiting for my mom to be ready so I can go babysit kids I don't know.

I think I may be allagic to something I ate last night becuase my Throat feels a lil swolen.

2005-11-08T00:24:00.000-05:00

I want to be a part of something...I want to feel like some importance.

2005-11-03T23:43:00.000-05:00

All my dreams are gone... or at least the ones i would look forward to.

2005-10-28T00:53:00.000-04:00

OH BTW THE WAY GUYS MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW..... WOW.. SO IF YOU LOVE ME.. GET ME SOMETHING... OR MAYBE TELL ME? So we had either pastor Jim or Karen, what doyou think of the picture? so we look good?

2005-10-27T11:35:00.000-04:00

I just got done with my graphic design test, and i'll have to say i think i did pretty good....

I hav to be at work at 3. im not looking forward to it because im very tired... but i need money

saturday is my birthda not to sure how im going to celbrate it other then paint ball...

Monday im going to open a checking account. get a debt card, and maybe buy a loto ticket.. just for the heck of it..

g2g work on homework.. ttyl

2005-10-23T20:11:00.000-04:00

so as dennis would call it "im going to get back up on the horse and ride" even though i may have fallin quite a few times its about time i get back up on it.....

i need to get back with spending with God.

i need to do alot....

2005-10-21T20:01:00.000-04:00

8 days til my birthday, actually its next saturday

2005-10-20T21:27:00.000-04:00

My birthday is in 9 days... I will soon be 18, a true adult.. i can buy loto tickets, get in bars.. ( like i ever would) and get a debt card which i need... I hope i have a good birthday, becuase believe it or not i like to be happy

the weekend plans

2005-10-14T23:13:00.000-04:00

Today was Luke's 20th Birthday. so you should of said happy birthday to him.

Tomorrow I am headed to Indina for Ruth's Wedding.
The Brittons will be picking me up around 11.
tomorrow should be fun, im excited.

2005-10-08T16:58:00.000-04:00

I hate its when you and your boyfriend have plans and then some retard calls and says there is going to be a halo party that night and basicly begs your boyfriend to go (begs meaning calling like 3 times).. And you dont want to be the mean, overbaring girlfriend and say he cant go, because you know he wants to go. But Its your annversary, what do you do?

random

2005-10-08T12:33:00.000-04:00

I have 3 art projects due monday,
a essay due friday,
I fell down the stairs a few days ago so now im brused.
I've had some werid pains in my stomach for a couple days,
Im cat sitting for my friend Amy,.
I only work 3 days next week.
My birthday is 21 days, but I seem to not care anymore.
Its cold out side.
Todays Luke and I's 10 month annversary.
My mom is having me talk to some people about my feelsing ( not looking forward to it)
I dont feel like talking

Ive been somewhat depressed for 2 weeks or so.
I need friends..

I really want Josh and Sabrina to come for retreat. it would be the best present every, plus we need a drummer.

I want to go on vaction away from every one, but take 1 person with me.

IM going to a wedding Saturday.
I want ot get married.

Im done.

2005-10-02T16:11:00.000-04:00

This hasnt been the best week, in fact this whole past month.

The pain is almost unbarable... I wish it would go away,

mxpx

2005-09-27T16:53:00.000-04:00

So I'm sitting here in Luke's drive way looking at mxpx's web site and saw that their going to be in concert with Relient k, and rufio, its going to be at kings island, I would totally Love to go, But the tickets are like 39.99 a person.. which sucks because thats alot of money... so thats my rant.

2005-09-25T21:30:00.000-04:00

<-- thats what my heart looks like, Brusied.

2005-09-20T11:02:00.000-04:00

Bobbys a quiter....

Werid things

2005-09-17T14:59:00.000-04:00

Last night I found out that my uncle killed someone and is in jail now..

People seem to be tring their hardest to get away from me,

I suck at Art,

I have to read like 100 pages in my english book

I want chocolate

I dont do anything at media team

and a I have a slight headache

2005-09-11T23:33:00.000-04:00

Yes, My summer is now over.. Clark state starts tomorrow... In a way I am excited, but also in a way im Nevous, etc,,

But I plan to start this new school year right.... Wish me luck..

later.

9 months

2005-09-08T09:48:00.000-04:00

Is this a dream? If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

Today is Luke and I's 9 month annversary,
We have been dating for 9 months as of today!

It totally doesnt seem that long, But I have enjoyed every minute of it...

So happy 9 months to the love of my life..

2005-08-29T20:38:00.000-04:00

I want a job..

If i get a job I can save up to move out...

Gas

2005-08-26T10:03:00.000-04:00

Yesterday Rachel and I hung out for the second day in a row, It was grand! I picked her up from North around 2 and we went to Fazoli's and shared a mass spegitti dinner, ate like 20 bread sticks, and took a bunch of straws.. We also got invited to a party and a weekend getaway.. Of course I wont go.. ( not my thing) Then we went back to my house left again to get gas and take her home.. I had 6 bucks for gas and that only got me 2 gallons.. How gay? I think if gas places want to make more money and get more busniuss, they should lowe the price lower then any other area gas stayion, yes they ownt be getting as much per gallon, but at the end of the day I bet they make more then everyone else, because all the people will go there and wait in line to pay alot less.. . .Thats just the way I think about it.. Comment if you agree

I went to worship practice to learn sound again.. Had a really good Coversation with Mike Bruns about Pian, ballroom dancing, and dating. It was cool..

I got Ruth's (Luke's sister) & David (Ruth's soon to be husband) Wedding Invitation.. So I hope I can Go to the wedding, Luke is going to see if I can hitch a ride with Him and his parents.. I hope so, because I really want to go.. I want to go to see Ruth get married, and to see Luke in a Tux...

The Staple Concert is Tuesday night, I am so hoping I can go, I talked to my dad about it last night and he said he would talk to my mom about it...

So that's it for now, Im quite hungry..

Here is my fall schedule..

Monday- English (9:00am -9:50am), Design Fundmentals (11:00am-12:50am), Art 111(1:00pm-2:50pm

Tuesday- Inro. to Graphic Design ( 11:00am- 1:15pm)

Wednesday- English (9:00am -9:50am), Design Fundmentals (11:00am-12:50am), Art 111(1:00pm-2:50pm

Thursday- English (9:00am-9:50am), Inro. to Graphic Design
( 11:00am- 1:15pm)

Friday- English (9:00am-9:50am)

That is all my classes, all of them except for English I am taking with Bobby, (Hes taking the earlyer English class) and the Intro to Graphic Design I am taking with Luke and Bobby.. This is going to be a great Quarter....

Art!

2005-08-23T23:55:00.000-04:00

I made this
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

I am very proud of this picture, I made it sometime last night in the quietness of my own room.. Anyways I happy..

I kind of got offered a Job today.. To bad that it's in AR.
My friend Josh most of you know him... well he works with media and with graphic design for a pastor in Rogers Ar.

Well anyways Josh said that the pastor saw my art work on my flickr and said he would have me move there and hire me.. I told Josh to tell him to wait 3 years until I get my degree and then we'll see lol. But even though I knew I couldn't Take it, It made me feel extremly special, that someone would hire me for my art work.

So that was my happy part of the day..

This did a big part of brighting up my day also.. and I quote

"Drummerchick160: did you like my art work?"
"jratcliffe78: Yeah... very much. I'm so proud."

2005-08-17T17:29:00.000-04:00

Today is hot...

Books are expensive..

I have nothing to do tonight..

Gas is freakin $2.52 a gallon...

I bought some pencils..

Parents are gone.

But coming back tonight :-/

I feel pretty for once..

I'm Done.

2005-08-11T23:13:00.000-04:00

So yesterday I had like a break down..

I found out I can really talk to Luke about anything

There is two people I can actually talk to..

1 About anything that is bothering me and the other I can talk about other stuff..

My neace is in town, She loves to suck up.. And shes good at it..

I think as of now Rachel may be the only one who would understand......

2005-08-08T00:05:00.000-04:00

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.

You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.

You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

this kind of sounds like me,....

2005-08-06T16:15:00.000-04:00

Survey:
LAYER ONE

Name: Courtney Kay Bentz
Birthdate: 10/29/87
Eye Color: Brown/green
Hair Color: Brown
Righty or Lefty: Right
Zodiac Sign: i dont know and i dont care.

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
Shoes you wore today: Black flip flops and black converses.
Your weaknesses: um, not being able to say no.
Your fears: being alone/ unloved
Pizza: peperonni
Your most overused phrase: "I dont know'", "I dont care"
Last thoughts before sleep: Depends
Your thoughts first waking up: Do I have to get up?
What day is it? Friday
Your best feature: my Eyes
Your worst feature: Insecureity
Your Bedtime: 11 or 12
Your pet peeves: People who are stuck up and snobby

LAYER THREE: Your Pick
Coke or Pepsi: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King, ( I get free Hshey pies)
Adidas or Nike: Converse
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I dont like tea
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Yuck!

LAYER FOUR: Do You...?
Cuss: No, But sometimes I want to.
Sing: Only when I'm alone in my room
Take a shower everyday:Yes
Have a crush(es): Yes
Think you've been in love:Yes
Liked high school: I guess.
Believe in yourself: Not really,there has been few times where I did, but lately? nope
Get motion sickness: Sometimes.. like when I ride the Vortex 3 times after eating....
Think you're attractive:I'm told I am
Think you're a health freak: Sometimes
Get along with your parents: Sometime,
Like thunderstorms: Yeah
Play an instrument: Yeah, Piano, and Drums

LAYER FIVE: In the past month have you...
Drank alcohol: Nope, And dont plan to..
Gone to the mall: yes, I had an Interview with the sears portrait studio
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no but I've ate a entire box of chocolate chip cookies in one day..

Eaten sushi:no
Gone skating: no
Been on stage: nope
Gone skinny dipping: no
Dyed your hair: yes
Stolen anything: no

LAYER SIX: Ever...
Been trashed (or extremely intoxicated): nope
Been called a tease: no, at least not to my face.
Been teased: no

LAYER SEVEN: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married: 20,21, or 22
Describe your dream wedding: Me, my husband to be, a strap less A-line white dress, Dasiys, and did I say my husband to be? I couldn't for get that
How do you want to die: Loved. and not alone.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Graphic Designer/ Photographer.

What country would you most like to visit: wow their's alot... Guatemala, Canada, Germany, Alstraia (sp?) Theirs a few more... I just can't remember them

Number of CDs that I own: cd's that I bought? about 60 ish? and I tunes? I don't know how many
Number of tattoos: none, never getting one
Number of times my name has appeared in a Newspaper/Magazine: never. Well maybe once when I was little.
Number of scars on my body: a few....

COMMENT!

As Summer starts coming to an End

2005-08-05T21:37:00.000-04:00

So my interview went well I think.

School Starts in 6 weeks.

I have 6 weeks left in Ae.

Not sure if I am going to Like this next year...

Does it have to be so hot?

2005-08-03T15:36:00.000-04:00

This after noon after I was done making pumkin bread I decided I would get some of my work for the day done..

I started the day out by getting gas.. wow gas is now up to $2.25 how gay is that? But I was happy to get my gas for $2.15 with my Kroger card at Krogers.. lol

Then I went over walmart and puck in some pictures that I'm going to take with me to my interview tomorrow.

Went over to sears to fill out another applcation at the portrait studio since they never got the one I did online.. I talked to the mananger... She said if I get hired I wouldn't be just doing 1 thing I would be doing alot of things, like cashier, photographer, babysitting, cleaning etc. So that s around my ally I think,.. She said she was happy that I came today and fill that out instead of tomorrow..

Then after I was done I went to the Library and payed my 40 cent fine and took back a cd..

Then back to walmart to pick up the pictures...

Now I am home about to take a shower becasue I feel so nasty and sweaty..

Then I plan to clean up the living room a little bit for my parents when they get home..

Then Hopefully hang out with Luke tonight, I'm not sure if there's going to be youth group or not.. but if there is I'll go and if there isnt I'll probably be with Luke..

You ask if something is wrong because of thepost on my xanga..

For thos who dont know what I am talking about Last night I posted on my xanga something like this " how many of you guys have ever seen me cry? Other then like a prayer night?" and Ive been getting commenets asking me what is wrong, Things go wrong Daily.. But that's not why I posted that.. I just was wondering how many people have actually really seen me cry?.. And So far i've found out that it's not many or maybe even none..

ok I'm done for now

Later

,

2005-08-02T20:09:00.000-04:00

So it's that time again where I'm forced to sit here and write about my life and what happened in my day.. Ok nothing really happened today, I got up, got online, got the new emer

Interview

2005-08-01T17:38:00.000-04:00

I have a job interview at the sears portrait studio this thursday at 11:30 So pray that I wont be nervous, and that if its the job God wants me to have that I'll get it and it will be the days an hours I want

They are back!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-01T10:05:00.000-04:00

Saturday was pretty good actually..

Had media team, went home took a shower, went to the prus for college group, stayed there untilf 2am, Kyle and I left early to go pick up our loves but got lost and ended up in enon, so we were late, saw a shooting star, started crying, (alil) saw our loves huged them for ever,. I took Luke home,
Went to bed at 5am, Got up at 8am went to church, came home took a 30 min nap,

hung out with Luke for most of the day,
He got me a cool looking purse and a pretty necklace.

went to youth group watched the gonnies

left went to Rob and Beccas, didnt stay very long, took Luke home ,
came home went to bed

Today I dont know what I am going to do

2005-07-30T17:56:00.000-04:00

Tonight well tomorrow at around 2 am Luke and the Guatemala team get back...
They will be ariving at the church around 2:30am or so I'm told.. So I am going to go met them there then and take Luke home, well actually I'll be going with Emily, Liv, Nathan, and Aaron.. I believe we are all driving seprate...

Anyways I can not wait to see Luke I have missed him so much

Flowers...

2005-07-29T22:58:00.000-04:00

Picture 059
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

Well Today I got myself a new Digital Camera.. It is great 5.1MP, Clear pictures even in the dark..

Anyways I took this picture ealyer this afternoon, basicly right after I got it,
Tell me what you think...

2005-07-27T21:15:00.000-04:00

You Are 26 Years Old

26

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

:-D:-D:-D:-D

2005-07-22T22:39:00.000-04:00

:-D

I'm SO happy right now, I just got off the phone with Luke,

He said that Their doing very good, went to 9 sites today and had 500 people get saved, and how that really touched his heart next they are going to the jungle, but their going down the river for 3 days and are going to witness to the people in the village, He said they will have to eat the village food and that will be roughing it, but he cant wait. He said right now they are staying in a pretty night hotel, and that the food is great..

Anyways thats all I have to say,
My car is still broke down :-( Ben changed the battary but their is something else thats wrong.... ::Sigh::

I got to go to bed.. I have media team tomorrow

Until next time

2005-07-22T11:18:00.000-04:00

So yesterday after i was done trying to find a steering wheel cover for my car ( no luck even though i found some i liked) I got in my car and put the keys in it and guess what.. IT didnt start.. It didnt even turn on, Their was no power what so ever.. i was like oh crap. So I kept trying and i kept hearing a dinging noise.. Still not sure what it was.. But i ended up calling my dad to come pick me up, He came and we tryed to jump the cars, all that gave us was enough power to roll the windows up, So now we dont know what is up with that car, of course we're going to get it fixed but i think it is about time to sell this car.. so maybe i can get a car i like haha.. like a small truck a chevy S10 or a ford Ranger.

I got my cell

2005-07-19T22:12:00.000-04:00

So everyone I got my cell phone back today, I had to go to beavercreek to get it though, i still have the same number as i used to (206-0047) but the part that sucks is that i lost everyones numbers.. So if you guys can be so nice and give me your numbers again i would love it..

13days

until next time

2005-07-18T22:06:00.000-04:00

Today I got woken up by the people working on our driveway they poured the cement today, but only did half the drive way so their probably going to do the other half tomorrow I assume. But like I said they woke me up because they were really loud, I actually thought when I woke up that something was going on in my room.. But it was just because my window was open… Around 9:30 Rachel and I went to the Y and worked out for about an hour.. I’m not to sore yet. But that’s what’s tomorrow is for .. Also today after the Y, I came home took a shower and then went out to lunch with Amy I met her at Mike and Rosie’s After that I headed over towards the mall because like American Eagle had lost my application and wanted me to fill out another one.. So before I got to the mall I went to the bank and cashed some checks I had from babysitting last week. . Then like I said I went to the mall, filled out another application there and headed off to JC Pennys and filled out one there too but they said they didn’t want me,, so I decided to go to the sears portrait studio and they said they were hiring so I got online and filled out application, I really hope I get that job. I’m babysitting all day tomorrow well 8:30-3, it’s not to bad I guess it will keep me busy and make the day go by faster,

I dont like putting titles...

2005-07-17T21:26:00.000-04:00

A dream of our reunion makes me crazy just to think,
How so very far away you are,
My hope begins to sink

Today's the day you're leaving,
And tomorrow you'll be gone
You're in my heart and on my mind,
I will bring you along

Everything sucks when you're gone,
Everything sucks when you're gone

>I like though's Lyrics<>

2005-07-15T21:00:00.000-04:00

My stomach is upset, I feel kinda sick.. but thats ok i guess...

Today my dad decided to tell me basicly how i dont own anything.. and that nothing is mine.. which made me mad.. They picked up the new car today.. I dont really like it but now we have 3 cars.. We got the car i drive fixed, it costed about 300 buck.. dang thats alot for a peice of crap.. But at least I got something to drive to media team tomorrow..

Today I went to the Y and worked out for about a half an hour..
10 mins tredmil, 5 mins bike thing, 5 mins stair stepper thing. So im tired. not that sore yet.. but i ganentee that i will be tomorrow..

Tomorrow Ive made my day to be the busyest as possiable.. I have media team in the morning, and then im going to fill out more job applcations and then I have to babysit at 5:30 until I would say maybe 10 ish? So hopfully that will keep my mind off of Luke..

I usally wouldnt write about him on here, becuase I dont know.. But he's only been gone 3 days and I already miss him.. I didnt really get to talk to him when he called yesterday, And I missed his Im also... I haven't talked to him today, which makes me sad.. yeah yeah i know hes only been gone for a few days and im already emo... I dont care.. Anyways Ive talked to Diana and Kim tonight that was pretty cool, but I wished I could of talked to Luke, just for a few minutes would of been nice...

Ok I'm done being emo and ranting.. That's for my other blog...

Until next time..

2005-07-13T22:13:00.000-04:00

So this has been a pretty emotional few days..

Last week was camp, so that gives emotions..
Josh and Sabrina came for a day vist that was really emotional for me..
My camera and my cell phone broke
My car broke down
Luke left for training and guatemala today, wont see him for 2 1/2 weeks..

so thats my last few days for you.

2005-07-02T21:30:00.000-04:00

Today I went to walmart saw rachel, bought more red hair dye so i might touch up my hair.. got home started packing, (im almost done) the rest is in the dryer.

Tomorrow is church and since Aaron and Luke are in Michigan Im doing the media stuff for service all by my self.. I finally feel important.. after church im going to a picnic with my family at buck creek, (woot) and then im off to finish packing.. of course theirs youth group, and I guess Jennifer is supose to thin out my hair (its way to thick) but i'm going to wash it before then so my dye doesnt come out.. and then Monday i'll be at the church bright and early and ready to leave at 7:30.. Im now excited about camp.. but for many reasons.. like seeing people ;-). haha .. So it shall be a grand ole week, I doubt that I will post in this wonderful blog before I leave.. but you never know..

until then,......... have a good week!

2005-06-30T17:13:00.000-04:00

4 days til camp... I guess im excited

2005-06-29T21:17:00.000-04:00

I need a job, I need money, I need a car, I need friends to hang out with, I need a life..

Summer Dayz

2005-06-28T16:53:00.000-04:00

The summer months are here, and they keep me busy so i dont post as much.. I like I said started my Summer off with going to Sonshine camp, then i had my open house. and started looking for a job.. Still no luck.. Now i have to start getting ready for camp next week.. wow its coming so fast. then a few days after camp Luke and everyone else are leaving for guate... im sad

home for a couple of weeks

2005-06-17T22:14:00.000-04:00

well today i got home from Sonshine camp, it was fun anf tiring, but i didnt want to leave.. I guess i'll just have to count down the days til impact..

my open house 1621 n limestone tomorrow 1-4 it would prolly be nice if someone came...

6 Months

2005-06-08T23:27:00.000-04:00

Dasiys
Originally uploaded by Drummerchick.

Like i said in the last post today was Luke and I's 6 month annversary. I got a vase full of flowers, a cd, and even dinner., It was a great night.

Please hit me over the head with a baseball bat...

2005-06-08T18:27:00.000-04:00

Last night Luke and I went to Meijers and went through the U scan, after you have paid for your stuff the lady in the computer says" take your change, and your receipt, but she says it over and over.... So Luke and I thought that after she says that their should be a button that says your annoying or something like that and then after you push it.. the lady says "Please hit me over the head with a baseball bat...". So today is Luke and I's 6 month annversay. It means we have been dating for 6 whole months... And they have been great.. shh dont tell him lol.. j/k..
Today He surpised me with a vase full of daisys (yellow and white) and then bought me the new MXPX cd (very good cd) it's a mixture of their old sound and their new sound.. its good.. I think we're prolly going out to eat after church to celbrate the 6 months... I think we're going to go to Falzios (sp?)..... My laptop should be in soon, the guy at best buy said that its been shipped, and is prolly on the next truck dilvary, which comes either thursday or friday

Later days..

My first time at PKI.

2005-06-06T10:23:00.000-04:00

Yesterday after church Larry & Jennifer took the seniors (Val, Derek, and I) to Kings Island.
It seem like it took for ever to get there. But we finally got there, and I must say that place is huge. The first ride we rode was Top Gun, and then the flight of fear..

I think all the rides i rode were...
top gun
flight of fear (outer limts)
Vortex (2 times)
Water cayon
Itailan job stunt
bumper cars
the sponge bob movie lol..

The day was great until I threw up after riding the Vortex for the second time

Somewhat New Look?

2005-05-31T10:05:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I figured out how to change the colors on my blog, { like the links and the text }
So I'm pretty happy about that, I was getting tired of the grey/blue links and the black text so now it's pink! Yesterday was the parade, Rachel came to my house around 9am and we walked over to mercy to get seats for us and her parents. Rachel and I sat there and it started to rain, (gah) it was cold rain, but we had hoodies so it wasnt bad.. Most of the parade was over, and Rach and I were beginging to wonder is the Wffc float had pulled out becuase of the rain.. But then a short time after that the Wffc float came around rockin out like always.. The Wffc float would have to be the best floati n the parade, in fact I think it is the best..

After the Parade I came home laid in my bad for about an hour, then got up and played some drums.. I haven't played them in a while, so it was nice to play them again

Later on My family went over to Lukes house and played games...

New subject:

Yesterday I went xanga surfing and just went to ramdom peoples xanga 95% people I dont know. But as i was surfing, I relized almost all the xangas I looked at were very depressing.. They act like there is nothing good out in the world.. That life sucks, ( it does sometimes), but I dont know it just surpised me how much depresseding Xanga's there are.

Going to Kings Island for the first time ever Sunday.

2005-05-26T19:15:00.000-04:00

A few days ago I registered for fall classes, my schudle for fall is

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Intro to graphic design
Design fundamentals
Art 111
English 111
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Today after school, i went to lunch with Luke, and then met Emily at the church to take some of my senior pictures, and I can say that they turned out good.

Good times at the brittions

2005-05-21T09:46:00.000-04:00

Last night I went with Luke to this party at Pastor Jim's house.
It was a party for Michael Rayes. It was great.. Had some good conversations with people..
Really good ones.. funny too.. Good times Good times.

So I'm offically out of highschool

2005-05-20T08:56:00.000-04:00

My Graduation was last night, Thanks to all the people who did come, Luke, Rachel, Viv, Gerrie, and Ronda, I was so glad that Rachel and Luke came.. Yes the graduation was really boreing, but Im glad I actually had one.. Rachel wore a mini skirt and got some looks.. It was quiet funny. I saw this guy i havent seen in like 2 years maybe, boy hes all grown up... He was picking on me the whole night calling me shorty and telling me that i look like a 5 yr old. so sluged him in the arm.. and then he sluged me back later on. Boy does he hit hard. My arm is still a little sore. , But the best part was when Luke hit him back when he wasnt expecting it.. it was funny.... Then after it was all over, Luke,Rachel and I went and hung out, watched movies etc etc.

All in all it was nice..
I have a test this morning..... gah!
And my weekend will prolly consist of doing nothing..

later dayz

2005-05-19T16:10:00.000-04:00

Tonight is my graduation, so yeah if ya want to come heres the directions..............

if you need help call my cell 206-0047

Go West on North St. to where it turns into a freeway.... Take the US-40 ramp toward DONNELSVILLE. Turn SLIGHT RIGHT onto W NATIONAL RD/US-40. Turn RIGHT onto N HAMPTON RD. Turn LEFT onto MILTON CARLISLE RD. End at Colonial Church 8963 Milton Carlisle Rd
New Carlisle, OH 45344-8252

Or you can go down through Donnelsville to (Biscoff) Tuttle Rd. They are really the same I guess... turn right its quite a lot of hills and narrow... when you get to the stop sign turn right .. the church is on the right

It starts at 7 pm but you can come at 7:15

2005-05-16T22:44:00.000-04:00

Today after I got home from class I spend a big party of the day tring to fit all the classes that I could into my schudle and I think I finally got all to fit.. Im majioring in Graphic Design, and taking 4 classes this fall

English111,
Intro to Graphic Design,
Design Fundmentals, and
Photography111

So I'm going to be busy. The sad part is I know i'll be needing a laptop for these classes.. esp the graphic design ones.. There going to work on mac's so I wish I had a apple laptop.. Anyone want to sell me a good one for a good price? lol

anyways i'm going to try to meet with an adviser tomorrow. so that should be good.

2005-05-13T19:48:00.000-04:00

I'm Graduating guys!

2005-05-11T23:27:00.000-04:00

Today wasn't a half bad day I guess, I went to school, turned in my outline, Got a A on it..
Came home, ate, went to sunshine club, came home, worked on a paper for like an hour in a half. made alot of mistakes.. went to church, went shopping, got a pair of jeans and a shirt. came home, Luke helped me on my paper, He left my rents yelled at me. and now im working on my paper again..
the end

You and me- Lifehouse

2005-05-08T22:43:00.000-04:00

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive